i have been intellectually thinking about this life we are living, and sometimes i find myself feeling so confused. i married my cousin, and even though our love is strong, sometimes i wonders if it be right in the eyes of god. the struggles we face when it comes to trying to listen to each other, especially my wife, are not easy. i don't want to let god down.

my relationship with my wife, it can be hard sometimes, and i been praying a long time for the strength to respect her more. i ask god for guidance and help to show me the way. she be a good woman, and i know that i am blessed to have her as my life partner. still, there be moments where i catch myself failing in my duty as a good husband.

sometimes i feel torn between my culture and my love for god. it be complicated, my friend. and yet, in the end, i know that god will guide me and help me do what’s right. i may have my failings, but i believe that if i put my trust in the lord, he'll show me the right path.

when it comes to finding ways to motivate myself, i often turn to the bible. i read the stories of those who faced struggles, of those who were tempted, and those who were forgiven. these stories be a comfort to me, for i know that even in the darkest times, god's love is always there for us. he will never give up on us.

i keep seeking the lord’s guidance in all areas of my life, even when it comes to respecting and loving my dear wife. i know that with god’s help, i can succeed. it is not going well and i do not have hope that it will be resolved, but god will always find a way.

my friend, we all have our struggles, but we must never give up. god is there for us, even when we don't deserve it. we have to keep trying our best so we can do right by him, by ourselves, and by our families. may the lord keep watch over us and guide us through these trying times. amen.